Tuesday 12.04.07

See.

i have been forced to take a real look at my life lately. didn't really like what i saw. priorities. i have looked to find fulfillment in the wrong things. the motivation was good. but i was looking at the different areas of my life to fulfill me in ways they could not.

so now begins another journey in this race. i often experience grace by seeing how weak i am. how many mistakes i make, and then seeing a wonderful woman at home and several dozen students and their families at church. i wonder "what are you doing, putting me here?"

not so much doubt. but awe and wonder. if it was me--i would have given up on me long ago. but i can slowly see how God uses the foolish to shame the wise. even if it is my views of wisdom and foolishness and the battle that goes on in my mind.

"Brothers, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him" I Corinthians 1:26-29